I wrote this for you!

So I was in class, and I couldn't think about whatever ramblings the novice presenters were trying to teach me.

So i was thinking, like my daydreaming ADD self does A LOT

last week, one of my scouts missed a meeting. It was her sisters birthday. Her sister died in a tragic car accident about 3 years ago.

So I send the weird, random gift i made her to school with her friend, another scout. A treasured scout who happens to have been a 1st year brownie my SR year in high school, when I was an LIT.

She said 'how come you never give me anything like this' and i thought.
I dont.
I've done it for her best friend, both sisters that came before her.
but not her.
why?
because i dont ever ever ever want her to grow up and leave.
I'll admit, i take her for granted. I love her to death (in a weird, non creepy way, but in a girl scoutly sisterly way)

I was thinking if I could say anything to her, what would i REALLY say?
because tomorrow doesn't always come.
I dont want her to go off to college thinking I never thought as much of her. When actually i treasured her more.

so I wrote this, and it doesnt being to encompass who she really is.


You are a phoenix
every time you fall
you come back stronger

you have a fire within you
bright, always shining
never burning

you have a poetic elegance
a healing grace
an unchained spirit

you have broad wings
strong in flight
light in the air

you are constantly reborn
refreshed, renewed
refined

You answer to no other
uncaged, free
beauty unmatched

you leave everyone in awe
always challenged
never dominated

you are majestic
unmatched
unwaivering

the daily struggle

So obviously I’m still trying to find the balance to be able to handle school, and the shop, and homelife, and maybe having an actual job (I either need to have the time to spend making money on etsy, or I am guaranteed money but no one seems to want to hire me)

ANYWAY…

I am trying desperately to make my shop work. Because I like but business aspect of this, I quite enjoy the networking, the promoting. However I really hate how etsy is trying to change too much too fast to make things more network like. Dear Etsy, stop trying to be like facebook. Thanks…

I don’t like how they changed the forums and force you to join teams. This forced me to join some teams, but many teams its required to go places, to do things, and I just don’t have time for that. I need to be able to take my hour between classes to handle my responsibilities. I found a few awesome Teams tho. One is a pay it forward Team. I love the idea of creating this web, this network of people. The rule is, you must create a treasury (a list of 16 favorites following any theme) every time you are featured in a treasury. 1 day in the Team and I’ve already been featured here: http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4d8ae40f56116d91dd4f4279/express-your-artistic-self

I also made my required treasury, called waiting for spring… It’s a cold dank rainy day here in Baltimore, following a week of nice sunny 70 degree winter. I happen to be on spring break this week and they are calling for snow tonight…

http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4d8b6e9366fb8eef7cad9067/waiting-for-spring

 now i still have to find time in the next 3 days to do laundry, clean the house (which in my family is not just a quick tidy, it's a 20 minute effort to find the table to eat dinner, an hour if you all want to eat together at the same time... i hate living there) i also have to take a mid term for my Judaism, Christianity and Islam class, I have to keep jessie's nerves calm and tomorrow is a do no work, relax day since she is taking the MCAT on saturday. She's really prepared and ready but as usual with these kinds of big tests she has anxiety. It really has been hard on her since her mama died, and she has to live with  my cruddy family. I'm struggling to keep my own head above water most days and break away from them, get a job and move  the hell out. but i just keep on truckin and moving forward...