Catch up day!

So… once again I’m a bad blogger. I missed as many days as I blogged on this 30 day challenge. So lets catch up on some things.

I was supposed to blog about my family… I’m sorry but I’m going to skip this one because I don’t want to put their business out there.

So I was supposed to blog about my opinion of my body and how comfortable I am in it…

I’m gonna be honest here. Not my favorite topic, I basically hate my body, and I am very awkward and fidgety. I am very conscious about my body, but I live in a very unhealthy environment in every way possible. When I look at my high school pics  I can’t believe how thin I look because I NEVER thought I was that thin. I have this horrible dilemma. My whole family is overweight, and I don’t think anyone is more aware of it than me. My mama, lover her to death but chocolate is NOT the answer to everything, but low and behold she’s always there with a tasty treat for everyone, no matter who it is that  needs a little love. My father who a year ago would eat 2 sandwiches as a between meal snack, is now barely eating because he has a warped sense of food, and how glucose levels function. My sister packs more in her lunch for work than I eat all day. Then she  joins a weight loss competition at work and drops 10 pounds in 1 week. WTF? People always comment how I hardly ever eat, well let me tell you, every little calorie that I eat STICKS. No matter what. And that’s probably because for the majority of HS I messed up a lot of things about myself. Who knows. But I’ve never EVER been comfortable with  myself. I have hated Christmas since I was 3, because I hated people staring at me as I opened presents. I hated being so conscious about every part of me and what people would see, and how I should sit, stand, and expression on my face… do you have any idea what it’s like to be conscious of every muscle in your face and what it looks like to others?

The next blog I missed was what am I wearing today… lets see, black pants and a green t-shirt. Sexy I know.

Does my zodiac fit my personality? Well… I’m a scorpio… I’m gonna say yes. Look that up for yourself.

Something you always think ‘what it’ about

I’m not a what-ifer. I’m a hey, lets move forward thinker. I think WHAT IF about is in preparation of things. I’m big on prep… I plan a lot of events with scouts. I plan camp, what if the kids get bored. What if the kids don’t like this activity, what if it’s too easy, what if it’s too hard…

Something you are proud of: I’m proud of my scouts, those that have grown up, graduated and gone off to bigger things. Those who actually do things. Like Hannah, who spent a semester in Africa. Who used her brain to bring back dirt from a country where she couldn’t collect if off the ground. She’s going to change the world. My scout who is getting ready to graduate, went from a quiet 5 year old, to a boisterous middle schooler to a down right ANNOYING 9^th grader. And now she’s a go-getter, a leader, a facilitator. And she has brass ones. So that’s what I’m proud of. These girls blossoming into amazing women.  

day 4: Bullet your day

* wake up
*rummage for appropriate clothes
*bandage foot (i got blisters yesturday)
*go downstairs
*fight with house computer
*computer wins
*deal with val's cat that wouldn't let my cat to litter box in time
*clean up cat pee
* go to car with Jessie
*pick up Ashleigh
*meet Rhonda for lunch to discuss mother's club
*drop Ash @ rec center
*stop at rite-aid to get jess water
*drop jess @ library
*come home
*put on bumy clothes
*remember to start bulleting my day
*read email, get lost while surfing internet
*gather laundry
*take laundry to main floor
*pick up val @ work
*come home carry laundry to basement
*val's clean clothes are covering the dryer, and in front of dryer, wait 20 min for her to come get them
*take vals clothes out of dryer and put in basket she just HALF emptied
*put vals other clothes in dryer
*spend 45 min looking through large bins of craft stuff
*return to main floor
*fix drink, i'm thirsty
*go upstairs to room
*read assignments for school
*IM michelle
*turn on music
*work on homework
*be interupted by val
*back to work
*interupted by dad
*i've lost me focus
*interupted by mom
*forget it.... HW's a no go today... crap i'm behind
*send a few important emails and texts trying to collect everyone's cookie numbers
*text jessie
*explain to mom why my sister's cat is bad
*pick up jessie from library
*come home, dinner's ready... yucky
*watch Ozzy lose surviver challenge while jessie eats
*come upstairs
*discuss my day with jessie
*cry, complain, then she cheers me up
*console her for my insanity
*type this list
*eat dinner so Jessie isn't mad for me not eating
*go to bed.
*nighty night!!!

Rain rain GO AWAY!!!

I can't take this much rain.

My classroom has flooded 4 times this summer. It has alot fo damage, i already have to fix the floor. NOW i have children in there once a week and i can't jeopardize their safety with water damage. I've been on mold patrol and have nipped that in the butt. But now as it's been raining all day, i can't help but think WHEN WILL THIS STOP?

We have had a slow soaking rain all week, now it's pouring.

STOP!

also, contact me if you are interested in donating to my Girl Scout Classroom renovation fund to protect the children from this damage

HP7

So the countdown to the LAST Harry Potter movie is on.

I was surfing around ETSY one day, looking for teams to join and lo and behold... no HP team?
WHAT?
How did that happen? especially when so many artists sell Harry potter items.

So I decided sure... i'd start the team...

turns out, out of all the teams i've founded (i believe i'm up to 3 now) this one is the only on REALLY taking off!

you can find is here: http://www.etsy.com/teams/9035/harry-potter

I think i'm going to roll with it. REALLY trying to make this store as much of a success as i can and part of that is building a solid community around me.

I am also simply tickled when i look at the user names of the people who joined! i've has the same SN since i was 14 (i'm 27) and I don't think I could think up another one if i wanted to. I cant even name my pets. I had a fish named FISH
and hedgies from a rescue and they came with names already!
sheesh... someone help me if i ever have kids! I'll name them kid 1, and kid 2, and get them those sweatshirts from ocean city that look like something from Dr. Seuss!


PS.
i just looked at the preview for this post... realized its friday the 13th, and probably the BEST i've felt in a while...

I wrote this for you!

So I was in class, and I couldn't think about whatever ramblings the novice presenters were trying to teach me.

So i was thinking, like my daydreaming ADD self does A LOT

last week, one of my scouts missed a meeting. It was her sisters birthday. Her sister died in a tragic car accident about 3 years ago.

So I send the weird, random gift i made her to school with her friend, another scout. A treasured scout who happens to have been a 1st year brownie my SR year in high school, when I was an LIT.

She said 'how come you never give me anything like this' and i thought.
I dont.
I've done it for her best friend, both sisters that came before her.
but not her.
why?
because i dont ever ever ever want her to grow up and leave.
I'll admit, i take her for granted. I love her to death (in a weird, non creepy way, but in a girl scoutly sisterly way)

I was thinking if I could say anything to her, what would i REALLY say?
because tomorrow doesn't always come.
I dont want her to go off to college thinking I never thought as much of her. When actually i treasured her more.

so I wrote this, and it doesnt being to encompass who she really is.


You are a phoenix
every time you fall
you come back stronger

you have a fire within you
bright, always shining
never burning

you have a poetic elegance
a healing grace
an unchained spirit

you have broad wings
strong in flight
light in the air

you are constantly reborn
refreshed, renewed
refined

You answer to no other
uncaged, free
beauty unmatched

you leave everyone in awe
always challenged
never dominated

you are majestic
unmatched
unwaivering

Girl Scout Cookies

So, I'm tired of Girl Scout cookies and I still have to sell them for a month!

The good news is, I had an email from a leader across the country, who wants to order custom buttons for her GS troop. She wants to put them on ribbons and make hair clips for the girls in her brownie troop as christmas presants!